So I'm sitting here... I should be editing tomorrow's video... but I don't know. I just felt like I should see how things on this website are going, because I've been really bad about doing updates on it lately. I really wanted to go out today. Not anywhere special, but just go somewhere in general because I really felt like vlogging. Instead, I slept all day because last night I stayed up until 3 AM, then woke up at 8 AM. So I didn't get much sleep. Plus, I was still super exhausted from IMATS yesterday. But anyway, I had opened Final Cut Pro on my computer, and had started editing the video for tomorrow. But like I said, I just felt this urge to check the website to see how things were going.
The first thing that I looked at were the statistics (so how many clicks and views it's gotten today and this month... stuff like that). They were higher than they'd been when I last checked, so that immediately put me in a good mood. Especially since I haven't posted or updated anything on here since early November. Then I went to go and read comments on blog posts. Normally I get an email every time someone comments, but I guess they must have been going into spam or something because I had no idea that so many people had left comments. But that isn't what made me cry. I went to read the form entries. A form entry is when someone fills out the contact form on the Contact Me page. There were so many. So so many. I couldn't believe it.
Normally I might get one a month, and half the time it's just spam or some creepy 40-year-old man asking me to send him naked pictures. But no. There must have been 30 entries from over the last two or three months. And they were all from loyal viewers! Some were short just asking me simple questions, but some were long and melted my heart. I only glanced at them, because I want to read each of them for the first time right before I reply, and right now I don't have time to reply because I have to edit my video, but when I'm done editing I'm going to go through all of the entries and reply to them all.
I think the main reason why seeing those effected me so much was because this is where it all started. Many people don't know that, but I started out on a blog. This blog! It was a different web address, but it was this exact site (just not as cool looking haha) and if you go back through the blog entries, all of the old ones are there. Each daily outfit post from 2010... they're all there.
The fact that this place where I just took pictures of stupid little outfits that I put together when I was in the sixth grade is now the place where people who call themselves my fans go to contact me... I don't even really know what to say. I am so touched and honored and honestly freaking out about the fact that people actually watch me. I've come so far, and the absolute best part is that I still have so far to go. I love my life, and you guys are such a big part of it. Never forget that. It's not about the money, the praise, or the glitter. It's about what I can give you guys. Hope, love, happiness. Company. I can't thank you enough for what you've done and are still doing with my life. I don't know what I'd do without you. And I mean YOU. Whoever you are out there, reading this, I really can't thank you enough, but I wish we were further in the future so that technology was more advanced and I could jump through the computer screen and give you a hug. Because what you've done with my life, it's priceless. Just thank you. Be happy.
All the love I can give,
PS: Waking up doesn't mean your dreams are over, it means it's time to make them come true.
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