To any of you who do not personally know me (most of you), I know that sometimes it might seem like I am not a real person. But I am. I am just a teenage girl out there in the world waiting for school to end every day.
I am just a girl. Just like you I have insecurities. I have parts of me that I may love but others loathe. And even though sometimes I try to be Wonder Woman, it doesn't always work out in the end.
I cry when I watch Titanic. I laugh at America's Next Top Model. It takes me a matter of minutes to get into skinny jeans. And I sneeze all the time when applying mascara.
Because you guys are not me, and don't get to see me in everyday life, I have developed a bunch of haters who think that I believe that I am perfect. I am not perfect. You all know that.
I won't ever try to be perfect. But when something happens to sparkle at the right time and place... it is sometimes good to believe that perfect is out there somewhere.
I eat Top Ramen in the morning. I get sick. I get bad monthly cramps. And in the end, it just makes me more and more flawed. But I don't even care. Because beauty is about embracing your natural flaws and truly believing that YOU are beautiful.
And that is why I make YouTube videos. Because when I watch other girls out there, they make me feel good and beautiful. And I want to do that for someone.
I am not going to stop just because haters hate me. But I am not going to pretend that haters don't hurt me. Because they do. Haters hurt me every single day. And the strive to get past that can be hard. Sometimes I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning because I know that there are going to be hate comments that I will open.
But despite the fact that I don't want to get out of bed - I still do. And that is something that no hater out there can take away from me.
And something that a lot of YouTubers forget is that haters aren't only on YouTube. They are in real life too. Haters are REAL people too. They just want to feel beautiful and loved. They just want to be cared for and feel good. And it will always remain that way.
That is why my viewers are so important to me. Because I am aware of the fact that many of my haters are people that are in my everyday life - and they think that I don't realize who they are. But some of my haters are people who I don't know. I might never know them. And I will never be able to express to them how sorry I am for causing them so much hate in their lives.
That is about it for now. I really hope that you guys realize that I am a REAL girl out there in the world. Just like you.
:) <3 :)
-Saphi Taffy :)
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