The room was warm. The warmness that makes your eyes blister, but makes your toes feel right at home after a cold winter day. The heater was right in front of me, and flowing straight into my eyes. It made them water.
Just the tiniest bit of mascara smudged under my eye. I wiped it away. My attention was now on the wall. It was white with dirt smudges and pictures of children who thought that they owned the world. Each smiling.
They all had different faces. Some round, ovular, square, and heart shaped. And their lips framed the teeth. Some of which were crooked, and some were in the process of being fixed. But one thing remained the same.
All of the eyes of the children were not looking at the lens of the camera. No - each pair of eyes was looking towards a woman in the distance. It was not a candid picture. That part was quite obvious.
And from the looks of it, the photographer spent much time on trying to make the picture look funny and candid. Which as I just said, it wasn’t.
Jocelyn and Nadine were sitting next to each other on the left side of the picture. They were not to the very left, but close, and towards the front. Behind Sam Wilkshire.
Sam Wilkshire wasn’t even looking at the woman, or to the lens. He was looking at Nadine. And with good reason. She had a piercing beauty that no one was sure whom she’d received it from. Her parents were normal looking, and her grandparents the same.
But Nadine was absolutely stunning... in a surprising way. She didn’t have the type of beauty that you saw in magazines. Not the retouched kind.
Not even the kind that you see walking past you in the mall that smiles straight ahead of her because she knows that all eyes are on her. Not that one either.
No. Nadine was the kind of beauty that you see everyday, but just as Lily Korp was to Jocelyn, it was that kind of masked unexplainable beauty. That girl that you want to know. You might even think you know. But you don’t. And that is a fact that is never changing. Because Lily Korp and Nadine Hart had one thing in common.
Whether they wanted death or not, they both thought about it quite a lot. Too much. And this was a part of forever that would always be.
A woman walked into the office and welcomed me, I answered a few questions and left. She had been quite odd looking. Her hair was a silvery grey, and very messy. She wore what looked to be very comfortable clothing, and open-toed sandal shoes. Why was she odd? Her clothing and hair so normal and comfortable, and her face...
... Debra Falcon’s face was so made up that she looked almost like a clown. If you had seen her from the back, you would probably just think of her as a regular older woman who worked in a school office, but her face was almost confusing. Because why would someone so careless in their clothing care so much about the appearance of their face? I don’t know.
I watched her fake eyelashes move with her eyelids, and almost wondered if she was trying to look clown-like.
But back to the girls.
It was the next morning, and Nadine was on Lily’s account. Jocelyn had given her the password, and she was doing the same as Jocelyn had done and was going through pictures.
“What is the one with the dirt?” Nadine asked Jocelyn later on the phone. She was confused.
“That’s just it. Nad, I have NO idea!”
Nadine stared even harder into the picture on her screen, “What is it? It seriously just looks like dirt”
“It probably is. Lily was that type of person who would put a picture up just to confuse people,” Jocelyn added as if she had all the answers.
Nadine raised an eyebrow, “I guess so...”, she enlarged it, “Shit!”
Nadine had now gained Jocelyn’s full attention, she was fully engaged.
“What?!” asked Jocelyn in a heated tone.
Nadine didn’t know what to say. It was as if time itself had stopped. And it had. Nothing else mattered. For she was so shocked, and so overwhelmed with the importance of the subject that she hesitated to go further and tell Jocelyn her news. But she had to. Because she was Nad, and the girl on the other line was Joss.
Just a girl...